| Okay soooooo
i hurt someone i love a lot...and iv done it more than once and i hate myself for it.
you know who you are. I love you so much and since day one when i figured out who u were and made u NOT hate me. yeah remember you hated me a lot. then we were rlly good friends and we both had a lot of feelings for each other but were both pretty shy. we went on a date most awkward night of my life thanxz =p. Ill never forget that night though. and when u came over to swim but u couldn't...i just wanted my mom to go away lol. thought out the school year we were rlly rlly close, it was a great relationships. till i fucked everything up. you were the best and took me back after i left you and dated someone else [note this is how i protect myself from getting hurt]. and i did that...way to many more times. but every time this person was the best and took me back...thats why i love him he understood and forgave. thought i had to work on that whole no trust or lack there of. this person gave me so many chances. then on there b day they b/u with me. i wasn't sure why but i knew it wasn't gunna b like that for long. we talked about getting back together and we said we would work things out. then this person goes away and comes back and tells me they have a gf and they never wanna talk to me again. if u didn't guess there was a bunch of drama it was like me vs. him n me vs. her. the reason....i hated not having him. i still do. every time i get close to having him back i fuck it all up and i hate it so much. today he was gunna come over....well i made plans totally forgot due to the fact i was thinking way to much about what the person had to tell me rather than the day so i left an off line telling him to call me bc i might not be home. welllll when i wake up i get msgs saying 'fuck it im done if you love me leave me alone' things along thoughts lines. welll all day iv been leaving begging msgs to still come...its 5:10....i don't think there working. i screwed everything up and i hate my self so much i hurt the one person i loved and i just keep doing it..like i didn't even realize it. i canceled the plans n everything....stayed home all day....begging....i may seem desperate but i love him n i just wanna be with him no matter what and idc who knows or what n e one says. a rlly good friend of mine who iv been getting little stress removers from bc he makes me laff every time he txts me told me that he not worth all the stress but its like i put him thought so much more im gunna b here. i promised him id change my relationship ways and id stop doing sertin things. i also promised if he doesn't take me back im not dating anyone else. bc seriously i don't like n e one else...hes the only one. i tried moving on it didn't work....im to hung up on him and ill always be here for him bc he was always there for me and thats one of the things i love about him. now some of you may have noticed this is called 'confessions of a broken hearted bitch' bc im broken hearted and i was a bitch to him. simple. hun if u read this which im sending u the link know that i love you and im rllllly sorry and i appreciate all the chances you gave me in the past and all my promises still stand...
i believe that true love congers all. i rlly hope it is true
i love everything about him. i tease him about his hair n his 'whiskers' but i do love 'em. i love everything even the negatives though theres not to many just the temper which is a lot better....i love you so much and i just wanna be with you thats all i want outta this is to be with you. you mean everything to me. when im with you every things perfect. i promise it will be diff. you make my world a happy place...even when u make fun of me...though i don't like being called 'her' name ....thats wasn't the best time of my life....but i can get over it.
i may have been to scared to commit befor
but im not now.
iv put all my feelings on the line the past like 2ish weeks and id hate to regret it.
i love you.
and im sorry for the past but i cant change it now unless were in a movie then i cud but were not so i cant i want to thought
and i would never make thoughts mistakes again ever they were stupid and idiotic much like myself...srry
i love you just remember that...and i always will 
ill always be here for you whether im you baby doll or someone else is i need you hun.
your my one and only and i need you in my life so much i need u way more than u need me, but u knew that. ill always love you, i promise[ed]
i love you
plz.
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| soo iv come to the conclusion since i cant go to the city on 9/11 for the 'truth now' event witch u can buy tix's for at wearechange.org
you need tixs though keep that in mind n if ur thinking of going tell me =]
anyways
i was gunna go with my sister till she desided to go on vaca that week eh maybe next year eh?
so im gunna find a '9/11 it was an inside job' shirt n wear it to school that day =]
any one wanna join?
just my way of hating bush =] and the government
If you wanna do some reading about all the 'conspiracy's' go to either the link above or go to Loose change
I know a lot of ppl died that day and im not being disrespect full nor is anyone else on these sites
we just don't buy that the government had NOTHING to do with it
wither your glih or gmih [Government let it happen///Government Made it happen]
but since i cant go to the city that day thats my plan
according to some ppl i shouldn't do it but oh well
Any one wanna do it with me? if u do tell me and when i find the shirts ill send the link =]
kk
and don't be rude bc of my beliefs
=] bye
if the links dont work just copy and past
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| You know you're from OCNY when...
-Even though you live 5 minutes from New Jersey, anyone from the city will still refer to you as upstate.
-"We'll see you there – at the Orange County Fair"
-You always lock your car doors when in Middletown or Newburgh
-Your high school prom was held at Kuhl's or Anthony's Pier 9.
-You remember the days before OCJ – and now you know someone who's been there.
-Your
15 year old Friday & Saturday nights were spent at the Galleria
before this new curfew.. and now even though you're like 20 you get
ID'd anyway.
-Laser tag was your activity of choice.
-WRRV or K104.. or both are on your preset.
-You know what "pick your own" means, every fall.
-You know to avoid the orchards and Sugarloaf on the weekends
-You knew to avoid Goshen for your drivers license test, and register for Port Jervis or Middletown instead.
-Your Drivers Ed highway experiences meant a trip down 17.
-86 nothing, it'll always be Rt. 17 to us.
-Everyone knows some stuck up asshole who went to Burke.
^DAVID! LOL
-You were pissed when Goshen Diner stopped being 24/7, or the Quickway turned into a 24/6.
-If you want to hang out after 9:00, your only options are Super Wal*Mart, Johnny D's or the Quickway.
-The majority of your high school parties were in "the woods"
-You've attended an "Under the Lights" track meet.
-Thanks to West Point you actually back the Army team.
-You know outlet-shopping means the Commons.
-To
get to Middletown, you don't take 17, you take the back roads which are
twice as fast.... and perhaps take a gander down Slaughter Road.
-You drive to Jersey to get cheaper gas & full service
-Even though Mt. Peter is closer, you go to Mountain Creek.
-You remember Action Park before all the "accidents"
-The first question you always get is "Orange County, California?" followed by "Like the Choppers?"
-You know not to swim in Greenwood Lake.
-No matter what town you're from, you always look forward to the fair
-One of your current facebook groups is something about the "real" OC.
-You loved class trips – Washington's Headquarters & Museum village HOLLA!
-Even though Stewart Airport is right there, you'll still fly out of JFK, LaGuardia or Newark.
-You know what people are talking about when they say "across the river"
-If you want to see a cheap movie, you know to go to Chester 6. If you want to see a good movie, you go to Middletown Galleria.
-You know to avoid Pine Island in the summer because of the smell of onions
-For serious shopping you go to Palisades.
-When you were a kid you loved how the Government building was designed, as an adult you think it's ridiculous.
-You've followed the progression of Chester 6 plaza from Jamesway to Ames to the Colonial Lanes.
-Every summer you look forward to Renaissance Faire, and every Fall you go to Forest of Fear.
-You don't mind the 3-hour drive to Great Adventure.
-You went to, or wanted to go to Kennetts Gymnastics.
-Summers at the Drive-In.
-You've had a close-encounter bear experience and lived to talk about it.
-Half your life is spent at a diner.
-You know what we're talking about when we say "the city"
-You've been mini-golfing at the Castle.
-You remember when your phone number started with 914.
-No matter how hard you try to get away, you'll always go back.
-Screw "Laguna Beach", Screw "The OC" OCNY is where it's at.
-You know what Joe's Video is, and you can't understand why people laugh when you bring it up in conversation elsewhere.
-You've definitely thought of a memory form the past while reading this |
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why since the 'Beckham' came to America all David B.s been doing is getting hurt? and whens Victoria gunna smily n wipe the puss of her face? i mean any women would KILL to have David in there bed every night n your gunna have that face on? pshh
anddd Perez was rlly good for a white guy Kendra for a playmate n heffs girlfriend a bit slow
Bindi Irwin is making a clothing line.....thats why Steve had her and named her after the dog....though shes a cute little girl shes a bit toooo mature...well when your being bait for the crocs you might be a bit mature
